>>13855I just came back from Burger King after attending the Easter Vigil Mass at my local Catholic Cathedral. The service was pretty nice. I wish I'd gotten a better seat than one of the extra plastic chairs all the way on the side where your view of the altar is mostly obscured by the stone pillars. But it actually served me in a sense. I notice I can focus better on one sense when I'm deprived of other senses (e.g. being better able to follow attack animations in Tekken when the sound of the video is muted). Not being able to see the speakers (i.e. the people speaking, not some kind of sub-woofer) just made it easier for me to focus on what was being said, which was nice (assuming the speech was clear, haha).
The main celebrant of the Mass was the local Archbishop! I feel like one rarely sees the Archbishop in this Archdiocese so this was nice. It was nice to actually see him! I even received the Sacred Host from him! I feel so lucky :)
I want to say as well that this was my first Easter Mass after regaining my social skills to a sufficient degree to be able to handle the sign of peace. I literally attended Traditionalist services because there was no sign of peace, or any social interaction at all basically, in those services and I did so for a long time because I've been a chronically unemployed asocial NEET for around ten years and my social skills had severely withered. I'd act inappropriately in the sign of peace during Mass and there would be faces at Church that I wouldn't see again. The Easter Vigil Mass I attended was Novus Ordo! It had the Sign of Peace! And yet again, I greeted people peacefully with no odd occurrences! Praise be to God! I've had a small breakthrough even as I'm kind of gaining insights into why I struggle to control my breathing under anxiety and why I struggle to control my face when I see pretty women. This is all downstream of the spiritual experiments I subjected myself to when I was an edgy, ambitious wizard. All these years later, and I'm still dealing with the aftereffects. Oh well.
By the way guys - question: can heat from a candle flow downwards? I'm pretty sure hot air rises.
When I was at the Easter Vigil Mass, we were holding candles because that's part of the service. Sometimes, hot wax would truly drip down onto my fingers, which would momentarily hurt (wax cools quasi-instantaneously). Sometimes though, I would feel a burning sensation in my fingers, like heat, even though there was no wax. It would make sense if hot air was flowing down the candle, but that doesn't make sense. Heat causes air to rise, not sink. And the pain from the apparent hot source was intermittent, not constant as it would be from a constantly burning flame. So yeah. I kind of think that there are bad spirits affecting me, and I'm feeling the spirit's pain from the flame because that flame has something to do with Christ's resurrection (I don't quite get the symbolism, haha).
Also, I had a double King Royale, I think it's called. It's a sandwich with two breaded chicken fillets. I couldn't really taste the chicken to be honest. Oh well. I'd say…
Ah, there is something that kind of bothered me. When I was eating my meal, I saw a guy approach a woman and hit on her. He didn't fare too well, but the interaction seemed polite. She turned him down saying she already had a boyfriend. I've never had a girlfriend and I've never been around guys that have had one and so I rarely see this kind of interaction, so that was cool. I can't tell however if the woman and her friend were already on their way out of the shop, or if they decided to leave because this guy disturbed them. I was thinking about how, if I was the guy, how I'd probably brood over the perceived potential disturbance for a while. Then, shortly after the women left the store, the guy as well, puts his meal-packaging-remains in the bin and leaves, and I did partially entertain the idea that he was going to follow those women, but I knew it was baseless. Then I notice that on the in-store radio, is a song with lyrics like "I just wanna follow you~" and I found that quite ominous. I did a small prayer for that woman.
So that's my evening! :D
