>>2942I don't go to chans very often but I do visit every now and then (tho I used to frequent them way more). I'm going to give you some advice, take it or not because I probably won't see your response, or you ever again. I'm posting this entirely because I hope it will help *someone*, whether its you or someone else who stumbles on this.
I started transition at 21, a part of me was terrified of ever doing it because I thought I'd be an ugly woman or that I'd never pass or whatever other fear you have that stops you dead in your tracks when you think about it. I'm 25 now and have been on HRT ever since (a bit over 4 years now). I started presenting as a woman in online spaces about a year in, and it made me feel a lot better in those spaces. 2 years in I came out to my friends who were all very accepting, I was living with my very religious mom at the time and going to college, she found out and I got kicked out. I moved in with my partner at the time, and kept working and going to school. By year 3 I had come out at work and fully presented as a woman in daily life. Reaction was mostly good except my boss was (socially) annoying about it, but anyone who didn't know me before is fully incapable of knowing my sex. By this point I'd broken up with my partner who I had moved in with, and moved out into my own place. During this fourth year I got another internship, then graduated college and now have landed an entry-level job paying close to 6 figures. I'm writing this because I want you to understand that you can be happy. If have a girlfriend, a great job, and a nice place with amazing friends about 5 minutes away from me. This isn't in spite of transitioning, this is a direct cause of it. Grades, social life, mental health, literally all of it directly matched my transition progress and how "out" I was in my presentation.
This whole "I wore makeup and I thought I looked ugly" or "I put on womens clothing and I thought they looked bad" shit is frankly insane. Do you think every girl did make up for the first time in 6th grade and got it perfect? Do you think that clothes, ostensibly not tailored for you, fitting you badly is shocking? NO OF COURSE NOT. Makeup takes time to get good (its an art skill whether you like it or not), your sense of fashion is underdeveloped, you're wearing clothes that don't fit your body because your body hasn't gone thr
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