>- im not fit for work from too much anxiety/negative feelingsSearch for a job, where you can perform with little or no triggers for your anxiety.
>- on bad days doing anything feels very forced to meTry to get flexible hours. Then do more on good days, so you have a buffer for bad days or work shorter days altogether. As long as you can pay your bills, you are doing good.
>- cant shake off this very deep fear and disgust for people. strangers. hate. I can barely hide itThis one is tough. Find out what you hate about people and try to not just diminish them to these traits. Everyone has a shadow, but if the hate doesn't serve you, why focus on it?
>- dont see a point in even trying because aboveWhen you are in a ditch, every way is a steep climb at first, but I learned that sometimes even minor changes can improve your position and outlook on life, like overhauling your living conditions, replacing a bad habit with a less bad one or doing something that is in contrast to your usual routine.
>- super anxious and panicky around bad behaviourWhat is bad behaviour? I hate it when people get angry, even if it's justified. Gladly my colleagues are all chill.
>- often analysis paralysis and fear paralysis that renders me immobile - - strong feeling that im just supposed to dieWhen this happens, start doing something with your hands, like cleaning.
>- 30 and jobless for the nth time failed so many times alreadyTook me longer than this, but now I have a nice workplace. After a couple of experiences I now know what to watch out for + I got lucky.
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